Title: A sad story - The Second Breakup Part 2

This time round, Jane wasn’t as miserable as before. She knew that the second time she got together with John, the feeling wasn’t the same as before. Something was just so wrong but she didn’t know what it was. She let go of John believing that he really wanted to have more freedom and not to be committed to a relationship for some time. But for John, he think that this will really mark the end of their relationship though he do feel a little disappointed but the past feelings can never be felt and regained again. Once again, both of them continued their own living lifestyle.

With the absence of Jane, John and Jenny often got together because they worked together and sometimes would go out together. John realised that he had started to have a little likings towards Jenny even before he and Jane broke off but Jane didn’t know it at all. Jenny knew that John and Jane broke off again and thus believing that she and John would have the chance to be together. On Valentine Day, Jane, who had already broken with John, would be spending this day alone. She didn’t even think of asking John out that day because she knew she and John would not be together again. She spent her day that day at home because she didn’t want to see couples outside as it might make her feel sad about it or even made her think of John.

As for John, he spent that day working. He also didn’t think of asking Jane out that day. I supposed both of them think that it was really over between the both of them. Jenny was working that day with John also and after work, they went out together. They went beach together and had a good time together. That day, Jenny asked John to be her boyfriend. Guess what will be John reply? John really enjoyed the times being spent with Jane and also he did have some likings towards Jenny but still he had some hesitations. Jenny said that he was single now and maybe they should try being together, if they are not happy with each other next time then they will break off. Thus, John agreed to be Jenny’s boyfriend and Jenny felt very happy. She had been in love with John and finally got the chance being with him after John had broken off with Jane.

John didn’t tell Jane about it as he didn’t know how to break the news to her. He just didn’t hope to hurt Jane again and thus he kept the relationship from Jane. But such thing can never be hidden from Jane forever. After few weeks, Jane somehow got the news about John being together with Jenny. The moment she knew about it, her heart felt a sudden sharp pain. She couldn’t believe it at all and she felt betrayed. She believed John that he wanted some freedom and didn’t want to commit a relationship but now he got into a new relationship with Jenny. What worst is that John didn’t even want to tell her about it. The trust she had for John was once again broken. And now her heart was once again broken into even smaller pieces. Though being so miserable about it and the evidence that John was really being together with Jenny but Jane still chose not to believe it. All she wanted was to let John told her himself then she would really believed it.

Think Jane got into sad mode again. Maybe she still couldn’t get over John. I supposed Jane needed for time for it or maybe she would forever be like that. Finally, Jane got her courage to call John up and asked him about it. They talked for quite long and Jane asked John a lot of questions. The more Jane talked, they more she got disappointed and upset about it. John gave the reason that he didn’t know how to break up to new about his relationship with Jenny to her. He said he didn’t have the courage to do it and scared he would once again hurt Jane. Jane said that he had already hurt her and maybe hurt her even more when he tried to hide the matter from her. Jane asked a lot of ‘why’ questions but John didn’t know how to answer them. In the end, Jane gave up asking John any questions.

The next few days and weeks weren’t a good week for Jane. She just got so depressed with it that she was unable to focus on the things that she needed to do. She thinks that there is no point and no meaning in whatever things she does now. She lost the meanings in living her life now but at least she is realistic enough that she knows she got to keep it going. No matter how hard her life is, how bad she is feeling now, she will try to overcome it. And thus, all these will make her a stronger and better person next time. She got no one to turn to and she knew she got to stand up on her own because no one will always be there for her except herself. As for John, he enjoyed being with Jenny. The feelings that he failed to get from Jane were found from Jenny. As days passed by, they got closer together while Jane suffered alone.

Once a while, both John and Jane would call up each other and talked. Every time when John talked about Jenny, Jane just didn’t wish to hear it but she still listened when John talked about her. Jane didn’t want to disappoint John as he was happily talking about Jenny, saying how nice and wonderful Jenny was and would also say that Jenny and Jane got some similarities. Upon hearing that, Jane told her not to compare Jenny and her but they were both different people. Jane didn’t feel well after talking with John but they would still talk asking about each other. As days slowly passed by, Jane got used of being alone. She knew that John was never the same as before and they would never get together again. The hurts, the pains were slowly decreasing. Though Jane would not be as happy as before, but at least she also would not be as sad as before.

Jane started to think that maybe she no longer can give what John wanted and only Jenny could give it to him. So Jane slowly started to let go John and really hope that he would be a happier man now. Jane told herself she didn’t want to be sad anymore, she want to be back what she was like before. Jane didn’t want to let people who care for her to be worried for her and she want to be a strong girl. Jane knew having a boyfriend is not everything and she still had her friends who would stand by her and support her all the way. One year had passed, Jane and John lived their own lifestyle. Jane enrolled herself to a 2 years course in one of the local schools. She hoped to concentrate all her time to this course and at least learned something at the end of the course. While John was still being with Jenny, though sometime they would quarrel but in the end, both of them would still be together.

When John was free, he would ask Jane out to meet out since he very last time didn’t see her. But somehow, Jane wasn’t free and John thought that Jane didn’t want to see him at all. Jane did tell John before that she wouldn’t be happy going out with him, so she rather not going out. But after John asked Jane so many times, Jane would still meet up with John because she felt bad that John asked her out so many times and she rejected so now she would accept to go out with him. It is just like normal friends going out having coffee or dinner. As usual, they would ask about each other and everything was the same as before. One change is that when John talked about Jenny, Jane no longer feels anything. Maybe she got used to it or maybe she didn’t care much about it now.

To be continued…

(Did Jane really get over about John? Will John and Jenny get together for long?)
soonsiong blogged on 8:51 PM
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